Ananda

You know that feeling when nothing’s really wrong, at least nothing you can put your finger on? But to be honest nothing’s really right, and even if it is, you can’t feel it. You ache all over, every bone is tired and every thought is too much. You know that you don’t want to die but you’re so tired you just want to turn the lights off inside for a little bit. Every task requires so much more energy than you have, yet at the end of the day you’re still confused about why your bed is begging you to merge into your duvet and hide under your pillows. You wake up in the morning and decide that today you’re not gonna wear makeup. For some people that means nothing, but for you it means you must be really fed up—so tired that you can’t even bring yourself to draw on a fake smile. You haven’t changed in weight for months and still your body feels heavier than ever. You find yourself zoning out mid conversation and feeling empty even though you’ve eaten. When you feel like this, you’re probably just having a bad few days, everything is slower than usual and that’s OK. But when you find that you’re feeling this every day for weeks on end then perhaps it’s time to note that what you’re experiencing could be depression. ♦