Thahabu

I’m patiently waiting for summer. That’s when I look and feel my best. My birthday is in two months, and I still don’t know what I want to do for the big celebration.

I’m trying to master the art of talking down my negative thoughts. When I wake up feeling like the bottom of a dumpster, telling myself that I’m going nowhere in life, I’m ugly, that I should just disappear, I now try to cut in like, “Haaaa, Thahabu stop lying. You’re so cool and beautiful!” Or something along those lines. It’s harder than it sounds. I often get stuck in negative self-talk for 20 minutes. I guess even attempting to stop it counts as progress. Allowing myself to be open with others has helped, too, even if it’s just in little pieces. I’m really proud of the social milestones I’m reaching. I was so wary of making new friends after all the drama I went through this summer, but the people I’ve been meeting lately are proving me wrong. ♦