Dear 2015 Bea:
As I write this, you’re in Italy. You’ve been hiding in your hotel room for a couple of hours. You feel very lonely, because you have no friends, and bullies are ruining your life. Your classmates are in their hotel rooms, with their friends…having fun and making memories.
You’re feeling so anxious, so sad. Your legs are shaking, and your eyes are puffy from crying. You feel helpless, hopeless. Yeah, I’d even say that you feel like a complete failure. You hate yourself so much. You want to disappear—you think that none would miss you.
“You’re a loser. You’re so ugly. You’re such an annoying whale.” —your bullies’ words are constantly looping in your mind. You wish you were dead.
This is probably the worst year of your life so far; you’re hitting rock bottom.
It won’t take long until you stop studying. You cry at the school’s toilets. You spend your days listening to music, trying not to live…but survive.
From this, life will only get better: You’ll spend the summer in England, and when you get back, you’ll start studying at a new high school where you won’t be bullied. Anxiety won’t be gone, though—and your social skills are still undeveloped.
Summer 2016 will be AMAZING: You’ll learn how to love yourself; you’ll feel like a teenager again. YOU’RE GOING TO HAVE LOTS OF FUN AND YOU’LL MAKE FRIENDS; AND YOU’LL RIDE YOUR BIKE WITH THEM and tell secrets and laugh and…it’s amazing.
In September 2016 you’ll start college. You’ll finally stop feeling lonely—your new friends will accept your awkwardness and your shy smiles.
Please, love yourself—you’re such a beautiful, kind, amazing, smart, strong, creative girl. You’re worthy of happiness, and love.
Keep in mind that:
1) LIFE’S WORTH LIVING.
2) YOUR BEST DAYS ARE STILL AHEAD OF YOU.
TE QUIERO MUCHÍSIMO,
—By Beatriz C., 18, Spain