Steffany

It’s been a super duper hectic time. So much work, so much on campus stress, and so little to look forward to. The one thing that has kept me going, as I’ve been crushed by the amount of school work I had to do, is a ticket to a Friday night showing of Moonlight. Sometimes, when I feel low, downtrodden, and borderline incapable, I have to look to Black art. Especially on a campus that affords us such little space to breathe. However, I’m not here to complain about that. I just have to keep my head down and do what I’m supposed to do. I can’t be caught up in the negative, although it gets hard not to be. The work I’m doing is semi-rewarding; I’m learning how to design magazines in one of my classes. In a way, it has exposed me to this love I have for design and layouts. Although my teacher has a tendency to be tough on us in a way I don’t appreciate, it’s one of those moments where you simply have to pick your battles. I was hoping I’d have a more upbeat diary entry this week. It’s just that each week finds me in the midst of a new controversy on this campus. A couple of weeks ago it was related to race. This week, I found out that someone whom I considered a friend is possibly an abuser of women, and that’s just been confusing and tough to deal with. I’ve also found a sense of resiliency in these past couple of weeks, but I’m not sure if I’m really being resilient or pushing everything into the periphery. I’m trying to avoid burning out. Pray for me. ♦