Cammy

Life feels really busy. I don’t feel overwhelmed, but school ending soon feels weird, as if everything is going too fast.

I had prom on Friday and that was cool, I guess. We didn’t have a prom king or queen because the girl in charge of that forgot the ballots, which is totally something that would happen to me. The same girl also forgot the list of song requests, and the DJ was this old guy who only had music from 2011, or whenever middle school was.

I’m hanging out with new kids a lot more now. It’s weird how they’re such a big group; there’s a lot to notice about them. They all interact with each other well, although there are problems. I don’t know whether they don’t see them or they just don’t want to see them, but I’m not established enough in this group to say anything about it.

There’s this one girl that I really like, and I hope we’re friends for a long time. Weirdly, she shares a birthday with one of my former friends. My new friend’s name is Maire. She’s a Sagittarius sun and Cancer moon, which I think is the best Cancer placement. She has a car and she came over to my house to get ready for prom. No one ever comes to my house because I live in Alameda and everyone thinks it’s really far but it’s not. She helped me clean the bathroom, which is nice because when my friends do come over and make a mess they usually leave me to clean it. Also my bathroom is really gross.

What happened on Friday could be a scene in a movie. I’ve always thought about how my life seems like it should be a movie and, since I’ve been getting more and more interested in film I’ve been truly thinking about it. There are a lot of interesting things going on in my life and I could probably write it as chapters. I’ve actually been thinking about making a movie about the different parts of my life. There could be a part about when I was seven and my parents got divorced so I had to switch schools—that had a big impact on my life. But I’d probably want to focus on things that happened more recently, because I have a better feel for how I’m feeling about things right now. I think making a film would also help people understand me better: As much as I understand other people, they really don’t get me. So I should really try picking up a camera. I just found out about a film class I could take this summer that seems really cool. I think it’s free and it’s at the community college. I wanna talk to my mom about it—the class and wanting to be a filmmaker. Parents are always scared when kids want to do something creative. I was always destined for that though, being a Pisces and all! My midheaven is in Aquarius, and that kinda tells you what careers you’ll be drawn too. Mine says I should be a filmmaker, which is super cool!!!

I think this will be really good for me. ♦