Cammy

It’s getting to the end of the year and I’m really looking forward to summer. Usually teachers start to lighten up because why wouldn’t you?? Kids don’t see the point in working really hard when in a few weeks we’re not gonna be thinking about school at all. But my English teacher (who has always been super tough) is giving us so much work. He made us start a new book recently and he rushed us through it—it’s a 300-page book and he made us read it in three nights. And then right after that he assigned us five quotes each night to analyze. And me being me…I put everything off and didn’t read the book and I haven’t analyzed any of the quotes because I kept telling myself, “I’ll just do it later.” But I keep not doing it later! This is really gonna fuck me up because these quotes have a lot of value, they’re 100 points for each night and there have been maybe 10 nights of this homework. The due date is coming up really soon so I have to find out how I’m gonna get at least 1000 points of work done in probably 48 hours?

I’m really pissed with myself. I ALWAYS say I’ll do better next time and I keep “trying” to do better and I’m not. I feel like maybe it’s not entirely my fault because I am getting tons of work pushed on me: On top of that work, my teacher expects us to read a short story, do a presentation of some analysis, have a full blown debate, and then write our own “moving short story” in less than 60 words.

There are only four weeks left of school and all this week we have this new standardized testing. I’m starting to freak out now that I’m thinking about how much work I have to do. The only comforting thing is that in a couple of weeks I won’t have to think about it. But for now I’ll have to try to suck it up and finish my work the best I can. ♦