Cammy

Last week, my mom took me to her favorite spiritual-energy-crystal store to find a stone that would help with the anxiety issues I’ve been having. We looked around and she found some smoky quartz, which is really good for getting rid of bad energy like anxiety.

Ever since I was diagnosed with ADHD this past summer, I’ve been taking meds to help me focus. My first marking-period grades were really good, and I assumed that was because of my medication. But later, my grades weren’t all that because I kept not doing my homework. Homework is my biggest issue, and even though I take this stuff to help me focus, I still have huge issues getting it done.

A couple of weeks ago, I was running late for school and forgot to take my meds. I noticed that it wasn’t super hard to do my work, just I was a little fidgety. When I got to my English class, my impulses weren’t totally under control so I was speaking out a lot. That may sound like a bad thing, but after class my teacher came up to me like, “Cammy you seemed really I focused today and you participated a ton!” And I was like, What????, because I literally stopped taking the meds that were supposed to help me focus! I also noticed that I didn’t have as much anxiety when it came to talking to people I consider cooler than me. That could be because my meds are stimulants, which can make me more anxious. Since I didn’t have that anxiety and I was acting more impulsively it was SUPER easy to talk to these cool people. Now I’m wondering if I should really even be taking these meds, because in the past couple of weeks my grades have gotten really good and I’ve been interacting with these cool kids WAY more. I hung out with them for the first time on Friday.

I know it’s bad to just stop taking your meds, but mine aren’t habit-forming so I’m guessing it’s not the same as me totally dropping antidepressants or something. Given that homework is a bigger issue for me, I may try taking my meds at a different time of day. so that they work for after school—I don’t necessarily need their effects during school. I’m hoping that I’ll be able to work out a method so that I don’t have bad anxiety and I’m able to keep my grades up. ♦