I’ve been thinking a lot about my meeting with my therapist, mainly about how concerned she was about all the extra stress in my life. Recently, what I’m most stressed about is my school work, and since lacrosse has started, I’ve been struggling to keep up.
My lacrosse practices are 7-9 PM three days a week, which is right around the time I would usually start doing my work. I’ve been trying to work between the time I get out of school and practice, but it’s hard because I usually want to hang out with friends. By the time I get home after practice, I’m tired and I just want to go to bed.
My therapist is saying maybe I should quit lacrosse, and she’s probably right because I don’t really enjoy it. I guess I’m good at it, but my coach makes it really difficult (me and her clash a lot). I’m mostly there for all the friends I’ve made, which is what’s most important to me. I’ve been playing with these girls since freshman year, and I’ve always wanted to have something that I could say I did for all four years of high school—I planned on playing next year, too. But with junior year being the most important for my grades, it doesn’t seem realistic. I already have issues with attention and getting work done, and it’s hard to juggle everything without feeling stressed. The solutions for lacrosse are all out of my control, like having earlier practice or getting a new coach. Right now I don’t really know what I’m gonna do, but the longer I wait, the more guilty I feel. ♦