Kiana

I find myself constantly surprised by the magic of the people in my orbit. It becomes a strange sensation for me—at times I find my ability to feel this way unbelievable—but I always remind myself that this is a good thing. It’s another harmless way of taking myself out of my head.

I’ve been watching a lot of films and TV shows lately because my Netflix free trial expires tomorrow. I don’t want to commit to Netflix yet, since most of my beloved TV shows (Friends, Mad Men) still aren’t available for streaming in the Philippines.

Three nights ago, I found myself watching the two Sex and the City movies. Two hours later, I was sobbing my eyes out. My tears brought to mind one particular incident of public crying at a remittance shop, back in 2015. It was the worst—trying to be inconspicuous while sobbing through an anxiety fit around people who looked like they cared, but who were actually just curious. I swear, nobody should ever feel constrained in public ever again. Ugh, I’m such a deep well of EMO-tions and tears, and I’m proud of it!!!

(To do: Cry more, and make space for people’s magic to shine through. So be it, see to it!) ♦