I explore my small island, which is part of Hawaii, to escape. I find places that make me feel like I’m somewhere different. I go hiking in the lava fields, and it’s like I’m on Mars.
Making plans is like therapy. Whether they are going to happen or not, they cheer me up. The future feels more fun.
Makeup is one of my hobbies; recreating looks, experimenting, and trying to capture a mood. People look at me weird sometimes because living here is mentally confining. People aren’t as accepting as they are on the mainland. They aren’t aware of what’s out there.
Living on an island can be very oppressive. I have to get out and do things in order not to break.
My friend and I go to a high-end shopping mall near my house and walk around Gucci. It’s like a museum to us—a piece of the mainland that is so close to being reality. It’s a little taste. We take it all in until the salespeople look at us weird and we feel like we have to leave (but not before we try on a few shoes).
The internet is an important outlet. I get most of my inspiration from it. I make friends, explore, learn, and so much more. Sometimes it gets a little unhealthy, and I have to “internet cleanse” because of how much time I spend on my phone. I’ll usually delete my social media apps for a week. It can be scarily hard. The time passes by so slowly, I don’t know what to do, then I truly see the degree of how addicted I am to my phone.
I tell myself to keep going. It’s hard, but I remind myself of the future, and how anything can happen. ♦