Steffany

Things are starting to come together a little better this semester. I’ve become a much more mature person than before. I want to be more selfish in 2017 and I’ve gone out of my way to implement that in my personal relationships. I’m much more cognizant of the labor that goes into my friendships. Being everything, emotionally or otherwise, for everybody takes it’s toll after a while. There’s only so much I can take. In many ways, setting these boundaries has been a great improvement for me. Relationships that would normally tiptoe into disaster are thriving after keeping the line of communication open. It’s as simple as saying, “you’re draining me” or “you’re giving me mixed signals.”

Unfortunately, one friendship is hanging on by a thread because of this person’s inability to be vocal about how they feel. Whereas I would normally sacrifice a bit of myself in exchange for their comfort, I’m just going to fall back. The ball is in their court. To a certain extent, I’ve been outgrowing many of my personal relationships and that brings with it a certain sadness. I do know that with the confidence I’ve acquired, staying stagnant is not even remotely an option. I’m over all of the petty drama. I’m turning 20 in a month. And I’ve adopted the “Bitch, I’m grown” model of living. I hope others join me. ♦