Thahabu

I’m on edge all the time, confused and very scared. I’m going through dramatic changes in my life and I’m not sure how to deal. It’s hard to distract myself. I can’t pretend that none of it is real anymore. I’m afraid of what’s to come. I don’t know how I’m going to solve any of these problems. What’s worse is that I don’t have anyone to talk about any of it with. None of my friends would understand. I have bitter feelings about this aspect of the dilemma because friends always come to me with their problems, but I know I can’t talk about mine with them. It would be too much. I’m too much. People complain that I don’t open up enough but when I do they end up just as sad and unwanting of my dark thoughts as I am. So I’ll just keep everything to myself and hope nothing bad comes from it. ♦