Cammy

I recently started going back to my dad’s, which is forcing me to remember all the reasons I don’t like him or the environment he creates.

Several months ago, my dad and I got into a really big argument that ended up with me staying at my mom’s all summer. If it were up to me, I would stay at my mom’s until I leave for college, but it’s not really up to me. Anyways, because of that fight my dad has been trying to make it up to me in all the wrong ways. He tried to resolve the anger I have for him with stuff that I just don’t want. All I really want is an apology, but he’s already said that he doesn’t think I deserve an apology.

Probably the worst thing about my dad is that he’s really mean to my sister. She just turned 13, but for as long as I can remember, my dad has been picking on her for anything he takes issue with. His main thing is talking about how fat she is and how she eats too much, which has led to her to cutting out breakfast and lunch. But he just loves bullying her about EVERYTHING. Being at his place it was weird to see how he’ll get on my sister’s case about everything, but because he knows better than to talk crazy to me, he’s nice to me. It’s really unfair: My sister is too scared to stand up for herself because my dad has gotten physical with me in the past. I’m scared for her, too, so I do what I can when he’s picking on her. In reality, though, I’m leaving for college in a year and she’s gonna have to deal with him for four more years. I’ve had a lot of reasons to be scared about going away, but this just doesn’t feel like something I can “fix.” ♦