Cammy

It’s currently college visit season at my school so there have been a lot of colleges coming to present about what they offer. I’ve gone to a few presentations, and a lot of them have been by schools I would have no interest in going to, such as architecture or engineering. It’s weird though because now…I’m considering what my life would be like if I was an architect or something. I think I’m feeling overwhelmed with all my options for what I could do for the rest of my life, and I don’t know why I think that adding more possibilities will make the decision easier.

I know that I can change my major, but, I don’t know, I feel like I should just know what it is I want to do. I’m surrounded by people at school who are in computer academy, or health academy, or engineering academy and they just know what they want to do. They’ve been knowing what they want to do, since 10th grade. I thought I wanted to do computer-type things, but that didn’t really work out how I hoped it would. I guess it’s good that I know that I don’t want to be a computer scientist, but that doesn’t really help guide me toward what I want to do. I want to do jobs that involve a lot of risk for success, like film or media, or art, or fashion, so I really have to be sure I’m good so that I don’t end up in a desk job that I hate. It feels like I’m running out of time, especially when my close friends have their lives planned 10 years into the future. I just want to have some sense of security. ♦