I have never found summer to be something that is as exciting and social for me as it is often painted in movies and on social media. For me, summer has always brought up feelings of loneliness, boredom, in between-ness, and most of all: nostalgia. I have trouble with just doing nothing, which is something I am trying to learn to love. My summers are mostly spent in my bedroom, with me just thinking, like, Am I supposed to be at the beach right now? This has been a summer of nerve-racking change for me: I finished the third season of the show I work on, Girl Meets World, and have therefore been longing for a sense of routine, such as knowing my entire schedule for eight months and feeling total security in that. I have been so busy worrying about what’s going to happen next that I have not been letting what’s going to happen next happen. I am trying to learn that control is merely an illusion, there is no right way to experience things (especially summer), and that sometimes doing “nothing” and just thinking all day is actually doing something: allowing me to get to know myself. I am trying to teach myself that loneliness is malleable. It is a sign that I need to be by myself and learn to be with myself. These images are colored by those feelings and are modeled by my best friend since kindergarten, Raegan.
Thank you Raegan for modeling.
9 Comments
the pictures are so beautiful, and i love the statement at the beginning. school is almost here and i’m already getting asked “what did you do this summer??” i didn’t do much of anything, so now i feel a little better lol.
Love these photos!
I completely agree, but sometimes I wonder if I’m doing something wrong by not doing anything at all, just sitting and thinking
the timing is weird on this post bc i wrote about summer nostalgia a couple of weeks ago and i just love summer nostalgia documented on film
Rookie Road Trip vibes !!
I relate to the statement at the beginning soooo much and this photography is wonderful!!
i rlly like these photos, especially #10. ur a great photographer and a wonderful person.
I love the last photo, and who’s that girl in the pictures?
I really relate to your message. Though I go out with my friends in the holidays, there are some days where I do absolutely nothing and its cool to see im not the only one