Steffany

After getting some form of closure at our final company dinner, I have not set off in search of work. I’m in this weird in-between space. I have some really great experience under my belt, but I’m still mostly relegated to internship work or freelancing.

At the dinner, everyone went around the table and talked about their next steps. All of it had me in awe, and I realized that the experience I gained the four months on that job really inspired me to hit the ground running. Except now I’ve hit a wall.

Most internships are unpaid. I was so close to biting the bullet on one, in hopes that the connections gained would pay off instead. That’s not even an option anymore, because I have to come with a minimum of $1,000, a balance financial aid won’t cover. It’s not a lot of money to some, but it’s a lot of money I just don’t have. I don’t want my parents to have to bear the burden of paying, mostly because I don’t want to have anyone to answer to. So, with that, I’m going to have to find a job. Which is proving to be a lot more difficult than I’d imagined.

I’m just stressed out and annoyed. I don’t want to go down this road again. I went through the application process only to be flat out ignored and it’s beyond frustrating. Not to mention that companies that make BANK are the ones refusing to pay interns. This too shall pass, but this has been such a tough year for me. Can a bitch catch a break? Damn. ♦