Cammy

I got into a fight with my dad and now he doesn’t want me to come back to his house. I know that I haven’t been wanting to stay over there anyway, so I’m really happy about that, but in some way it is a bit like getting disowned—and that’s not anything to feel particularly happy about. Still, it’s super liberating and I feel so good!!!

I don’t like fighting but I figured if me and my dad got into it enough that I would make him not want me anymore. Which is a weird self-sabotage sort of thing but the point is I’m out of there!! And I don’t have to deal with that super toxic relationship anymore. It’s really weird because my sister still goes over there so I’ve spent the last couple of nights without her and I miss her a lot. I never thought I’d say that since me and my sister are so on again off again but I really miss her company. I didn’t realize how important it was for her to be around me. But I know that we would have had to start getting used to it because I’m leaving for college soon. I’d like to think that this is for the greater good and that she’s learning how to be alone. ♦