Fatma

I’ve been feeling really blocked, recently. My honest feelings are that I’m disappointed with my situation. I’m unhappy in school but I feel wonderful at home. However, I spend most of my time at school, and when I’m at home, my brain is full of thoughts about school. I feel so drained. When I think about the role of fate, I think of the word “why.” Why do I live here? Why do these things happen to me? I find it crazy to know that the choices I make won’t affect my fate. It doesn’t matter if I do or don’t leave the house because the way I die is predetermined. I personally believe it was written in the stars. But there are some positive things happening, too. I’ve been watching episodes of Boy Meets World, and watching Rush Hour over and over again.

I don’t really care how easily things like shows and films and Missy Elliott songs make me happy. At least I feel a bit better about my life. I owe it all to them. ♦