Cammy

My week was weird. I had a good dream about a boy in some of my classes who isn’t the same boy as the one I have a crush on. And like as much as I liked the old crush, after one dream that I can’t even remember that well, I almost completely forgot about him and started liking this new boy!

I felt that I should feel guilty, so I asked my friends, “How fake am I for developing this fully fledged crush on this new boy in 24 hours and dropping the boy I’ve had a crush on for months and months?”

One of my friends said super simply, “You’re a teenage girl! Just like the rest of us.”

It was so comforting! Because I AM a teenage girl and I’ve been feeling so weird with my sexuality. I’m still identifying as queer and I’ve only just recently started having real crushes on boys—I’ve been wondering what’s wrong with me. But there’s nothing wrong with me! I’m a teenage girl: I don’t know everything and I’m learning about myself. Not as in “I’m learning from my mistakes,” but just understanding that I am in a stage of constant growth. That’s so nice to keep in mind when I’m not so sure about everything. Maybe thinking about life in this way will be helpful to other people who aren’t so sure about growing up. ♦