Cammy

I’m having a really hard time pinpointing how I’ve been feeling. I’ve been trying to sum up how everything has been going lately and it’s just not easy. I think that I just need to be with my friends more. I think I’ve been feeling lonely and disconnected because of everything that’s been going on. I feel guilty about not spending time with my friends which is bad because I usually can’t help it. Things just haven’t been normal, and there’s not really a way to describe why that is.

It’s fair to say that I’m doing better at least, but maybe this way I’ve been isn’t actually an improvement. Seeing a certain person can turn my day way down, to the point where I’m not talking and doing regular work seems pointless. I’ve been trying new things but still, I just don’t feel like myself. It’s weird and scary. I don’t like how other people can have such a negative influence on my life.

I want to be more like me again. It’s hard to just put this stuff away. Usually if something is wrong at home I can forget about it at school, but now there are issues at home and at school and I don’t get a break. I honestly don’t even like talking about everything that’s going wrong because doing so only makes things harder. ♦