All the features that I listed at the end of “Shadow Manifesto, Part 1” are ones I felt body dysmorphia about. I knew that each could act as a “tell” of my transness in public. I don’t need to learn to love my body, but I wanted to at least not actively hate it. I am on some kind of path about that.
I started going through my Saturn return, a two-year period in a person’s astrological chart that shakes up your world and makes you pick up the pieces that work for you, on December 23, 2014.
I ended 2014 as a sober girl, healing in public. I ended 2014 with a question.
(I also ended this year watching a library DVD of the 1942 René Clair comedy I Married a Witch starring Veronica Lake. It’s on Hulu and it’s perfect.)
The question is: