Britney

I am a hypocrite. I always tell other people to share their feelings, but I never really share my own. I’m too afraid of burdening others, so I clam up when I’m angry. I realized this a few days ago and haven’t been able to stop thinking about it.

Even here, in what is supposed to be my personal diary, where I share my inner life with you, I tend to keep things on a surface level, playing it safe, so that no one can accuse me of whining. Even telling you this much makes me uncomfortable. It’s like…there is so much I could say, but when I try to write it down, I get this heavy feeling in my stomach that warns me not to.

I am angry at myself. ♦