Dear Diary

March 19, 2014

Fire! Blood! Danger! Intentional violence! This week’s diaries pack a whole action movie’s worth of excitement.

Britney

Everything is changing, yet so much is the same. The year progresses and the same judgmental people stay just as judgmental; my need to live in a different time—a time when I know would be happier—persists; and asking for help remains just as difficult for me as ever. I still don’t know how to express myself in the ways that I want to.

I feel suspended in a state of inner chaos. I wish I didn’t have to depend on outside sources to feel content with myself and my life, but that is the way it is, and I don’t know what to do. There is no eloquent way to put it; I just don’t know. ♦

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4 Comments

  • speakeasied March 19th, 2014 8:33 PM

    Britney: in your two short paragraphs, you reminded me that I’m not alone. I’ve had the same exact feelings since December since my dad passed away and sometimes I forget that other people feel the way I do, even if it isn’t caused by the same thing. I just wanted to thank you for that – even if it wasn’t as eloquent as a best-selling novel, it was honest. At the end of the day, honest writing is the best writing.

  • flawedpoet March 19th, 2014 9:06 PM

    I can very much relate to all of these, especially the last one,

  • Eileen March 19th, 2014 11:32 PM

    So I’m 17 today. *aww thanks you guys*
    Not sure how but- Ruby, this was somehow the closure I needed to just go to sleep tonight. Who say my cool day ends when I go to sleep? I could be having totally crazy bananas dream right now.
    @flawedpoet, I noticed you ended on a comma. Well played. unless you didn’t intentionally do that,

  • littleredridinghood March 20th, 2014 1:19 PM

    Ruby’s entry reminds me of Angela’s story in My So Called Life.