Our bodies get bigger but our hearts get torn up.
“Very pink week,” says Caitlin.
Nothing lasts forever, not even the greatest things. Read More »
My life isn’t full of wonder anymore. Read More »
I am so sick of the way things are, of the people around me, of how fake everything is. Read More »
Ruby– I’m just getting into Arcade Fire now (waaay too late) and I completely understand where you are coming. Those lyrics are mesmerizing.
It’s scary to see the world in a completely different way from just a few months earlier… a world just doesn’t seem as magical or easily manipulated with our imaginations. But some of that’s just in our teenage heads. We still have that child-like wonder within us, it just manifests itself in different ways now. Gone are the stuffed animal parties, but now we get to dig deeper and discover ourselves, our tastes, our minds, and have interactions that we’ll remember vividly for years to come.
OMFG GRAND BUDAPEST I AM DEAD
love the arcade fire lyrics as an opening
You are not alone, Brit.
Can I call you Brit.
*rolls eyes and draws easy smile*
Oh god I hope that didn’t sound sleazy! I imagined more of a Kurt Hummel face.
And yes I watch glee. I really like their enthusiasm.
my darling ruby. i know how you feel. and i promise you, every time your heart darkens, it’s just turning into another colour, one just as beautiful.
Hey Ruby. I really feel you on those Arcade Fire lyrics. I’ve had ‘Bigger Than Us’ by White Lies stuck in my head irregularly over the past few months. And it’s weird because I first heard the song probably three or four years ago and never listened to it intentionally. I listened to the song all day today and realizes it satisfies parts of me that I can’t identify or explain and it makes me sad yet better if I’m making any sense at all. (I don’t usually comment because I ramble a lot). Anyhow, I’m sixteen too and I feel like I’ve lost all my innocence. I don’t feel like a teenager but instead a hollow shell that’s existed on the earth for sixteen years. Since the beginning of high school things have lost its luster, significance, value. Nothing excites me anymore and I feel like each day is slipping out of my hands because I don’t do anything memorable or fun or exciting and I just feel so stressed and anxious all the time.
I’m so glad that this current bad mood I’m in is like a world-wide epidemic affecting teenage girls everywhere. Reading about other people feeling as annoyed at the world and life and school as me actually made me feel better – revelling in the current community of annoyance. thank you again Rookie and its lovely contributors for making me feel better xxx
Hey Britney :) I recommend the movie “Into the Wild” to you :D
I have never felt more connected to anything like what Britney wrote ever before.
Naomi, you just put in words feelings i have been having for a few years and i’d like to thank you for that. it doesn’t make me feel better about them, but they seem to be more real this way. more present.
You may think that everything is floating by and that you don’t keep a diary anymore, but as you wrote this article i think it proves that you do introspect. and you seem to do it really well.
can we all just have a big gathering where we talk about life and our views, bc u guys are the only ones that seem to understand me right now.
YES ! !
Britney, you could not have voiced my thoughts in a more eloquent way. I know that feeling of being alone, and I resent people who CLAIM to feel the same way to my face, because nobody ever knows exactly how anyone is feeling. I feel like that’s a byproduct of my resentment that I can’t do away with; if YOU resent me for feeling the same way you do then by all means, feel that way haha. Thank you for acknowledging this aspect of school life and letting me know that I’m not the only one feeling misplaced and that there are real people out there with real feelings with real justification.
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