Caitlin: “Scared, scared, scared.”
I’ve lost control. Read More »
Sometimes I miss being alone. Read More »
A familiar feeling washed over me: I was the odd one out. Read More »
Editor’s note: Katherine is taking the week off.
Caitlin, I feel the exact same way. Sometimes I feel scared more than anything else. But it is getting better (Rookie has helped a lot). Thank you for putting it into better terms than I have been.
Ruby B., thank you for knowing exactly how I feel and being another 15 year old with the Kimmunicator ringtone.
These are so beautiful! Dear diaries always put my thoughts into words and I loved the concept of these ones!
Naomi… I hope you feel better soon. I wish we were friends IRL, I feel like we would have a lot to talk about.
Ruby I love your ringtone! <3
ruby, thanks for reminding me that there are some good things that I might actually look back on fondly about right now. & also reminding me that it won’t be like this forever.
Just a heads up to staff that rubys diary link goes to Brittany’s right now.
Thank you for the heads up!
Oh cool, I live in NYC too Britney!
Oh, Caitlin, I can relate to that so much. I am (and have always been) afraid of e v e r y t h i n g. My fearfulness has led to some serious test anxiety and some kind of receiving-grades-phobia. I’m also super scared of growing up, uhg. I only have one year left until I’ll have to “decide what to do with my life”, which scares the shit out of me.
I love Caitlin’s comic/artwork. Very relatable.
lovely, lovely, beautiful. all of you.
Ruby, one of my best friends and I are constantly going I USED TO DO SO MUCH MORE AND WATCH MORE MOVIES AND READ MORE and then we remember, like you did, oh yeah, that was before high school/friends. Freaks and Geeks came into my life in 8th grade and I was sitting in bed making collages when I saw this part-
-and it totally resonated with me in the warmest, fuzziest, least-sad way.
Hugs to all of you <3 I loved this week’s so much, Caitlin.
Ruby i feel you.
Oh Caitlin I feel you girl. School scares me so much. So does growing up. I go back and forth between “I don’t want to grow up, it’s so scary” and “I really need to stop being so childish and grow up”. Ugh. But lovely artwork this week.
I relate with all the diaries a little. On the last real vacation I went on, my older sister wound up forcing Mr into being a third wheel while she walked around with a guy she found at the park (we weren’t allowed to walk alone). Eventually I just said forget it and left. Feeling left out is way too common for me. Sometimes I enjoy being alone but at other moments I can’t stand it.
Oh Ruby, reading your entry made me smile in the most genuine way. I have the same comfort in feeling alone- I just finished high school, and that gives me freedom to think about what friends are still important and which ones were “high school friends” that I can drift away from. I’ve been doing things with myself a lot, and the only time I see people is at my new job, which is a nice environment, and the people there make me happy, but when I leave I’m still alone, and it is freeing. I just love that.
Ruby, i love your article. it made my heart smile and my eyes teary. i feel alone too. mostly because people don’t understand me and it sucks how some of the people i love despise me. i don’t really know how to fix it. i’m really hoping that in the future things will get better but in the meantime, i’ll just hang out with my friends. they may not know me better than i know myself, but at least i have someone to run to when things get rough. your article sort of made me feel like i’m not alone in my loneliness and so i thank you ♥
I loved all three of this weeks entries, Ruby yours resonated most within me. <3 love and hugs to all three of you. xx
Caitlin: I feel ya, girl. I’m can literally find something to be scared of in everything. EVERYTHING. No matter how small the detail or aspect, I can be scared of it.
Naomi: Keep walking that path girl. No matter what happens just keep going forward, even if you’re walking towards something you can’t see or don’t know. Even if you’re walking blind. I’m in that place right now, walking blindly to an unknown future. But you’re walking and so am I. And there are many people out there walking these paths as well. Perhaps we’re all walking together. Stay strong, my dear. <3
Ruby: I'm proud of you for taking that chance, as it has made you happier in the end, no matter how hard it was at first. I am proud and a little jealous because I wish I could do the same. But I'm mostly proud. ^_^
Britney: I know those feels. Being the odd one out, and feeling bad for being upset about that when it's a friend who's become happy. I know. Just remember you're not wrong for feeling upset or lonely at all.
I identify so strongly with this. Especially the bit about being scared of the elderly. I wouldn’t say I’m scared but it makes me feel sad when I see an elderly person struggle to do things that I can do so easily. And then I guess I feel scared because we all will end up there one day, where things won’t just be easy and I shouldn’t take for granted how lucky I am right now even though it doesn’t always feel like it.
Anyways. Great storyboard. Really resonated with me. xx
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