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Someday Our Youth Will Be Behind Us

Our inaugural edition of reader poetry.

Emily Carney



Scrolling

The way in which I mindlessly scroll through different colored socks on Forever21.com has become a metaphor for my life
Don’t care
For a particular pair
Just keep scrolling for the sake of scrolling
Just keep scrolling for the sake of reaching the end
Just keep scrolling because I am scrolling

My life has become an array of repetitive Band-Aids and ointment applications
My life has become, my life has become…
My life has become “my life has become”

The anxiety hits again (had it ever really left?) and it’s like wet cement when he puts his hand on my thigh
Hot
Wet
Permanent
Can’t be touched
Don’t deserve to be touched
“Next time let’s just eat the pig”

I am highly skilled at:
Typing (75 words per minute)
Working with others
Making people feel at ease

Making people feel at ease?
No
I have become exquisitely good at letting the thick, foggy tequila spill down my throat
I am well versed in pressing my teeth against the lime with just the right amount of pressure, so as to soothe away the bitter yet leave enough pulp for the next time
The next shot
In roughly another 45 seconds
And I have gained the knowledge to find the most booze, for the least amount of dollars
$23 for nearly 2 liters
A cheap brand
On sale
But you can’t put that on a résumé can you

“You’ll have to take these antibiotics twice a day for 10 days,” she tells me
And it scares me that “don’t drink” is an afterthought
Scares me that I don’t know how I’ll make it to Friday

I can’t stand to look at myself
I can’t stand to watch another piece of television
I can’t stand to hear his voice telling me I’m beautiful
Over and over and over
Until the word feels like a filmy strip being pressed to my soul like a temporary tattoo
As if it must mean so much to me
As if it will tie together all loose ends of myself
Which feather and fray
With each passing day
Like true blue American denim.

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34 Comments

  • whatever April 19th, 2013 3:12 PM

    what a great collection! i’m going to print out some of these and stick them on my wall ♡♡
    “rather” on page 11 made me laugh

    ♡♡♡♡
    http://teenmoonwitch.blogspot.co.uk/

  • Ree April 19th, 2013 3:23 PM

    Gosh, Rookie readers are the best, this is brilliant in every way :-)

  • dreamygirl April 19th, 2013 4:09 PM

    “There is a 13-year-old girl,
    tall for her age, gangly.”
    This is a perfect description of me. Perhaps the exact definition of my appearance.

  • FlowerandtheVine April 19th, 2013 4:30 PM

    This is really a tremendous collection. It’s amazing how people can feel so many of the same emotions, while going through completely different situations!

    http://flowerandthevine.wordpress.com

  • indigosunday April 19th, 2013 4:49 PM

    Such a great poetry collection

  • KatGirl April 19th, 2013 5:50 PM

    Summer Nights T_T

  • paige.xo April 19th, 2013 6:14 PM

    perf

  • Jasmine April 19th, 2013 6:39 PM

    very lovely to see so much talent c:
    it definitely inspires me

  • Bianca April 19th, 2013 6:52 PM

    Aw Rookie has such talented readers! Their words and hearts on page move me greatly…nice job everyone <3

    PS – I also followed the links left in comments above by readers to their blogs…also very cool.

  • Maddie April 19th, 2013 7:21 PM

    This is such a beautiful collection of poems! I love that Rookie publishes reader work… thank you!

  • Miss Pink April 19th, 2013 8:28 PM

    LOVE this collection!! Such talented poets! <3

    http://mostlikelytowearpink.tumblr.com/

  • TessAnnesley April 19th, 2013 9:26 PM

    looooooooooooord i love all of you

  • rockwrenroll April 19th, 2013 9:36 PM

    I just watched Dead Poets Society, so I’ve been on a bit of a poetry kick lately. These are wonderful.

  • AnaRuiz April 19th, 2013 9:39 PM

    Things like this help me understand what Mary Poppins referred to with “supercalifragilisticexpialidocious.”

    http://anaruizwriting.blogspot.com

  • wishfulwanderer April 20th, 2013 12:54 AM

    These are so great! I am kind of disappointed though that I didn’t submit my poetry… will there be another edition of reader poetry?

  • Tara A. April 20th, 2013 1:00 AM

    Rookie readers are amaaaazing and so talented! This collection is the best!

    http://www.unlockingpandorasbox.blogspot.com

  • Tangerine April 20th, 2013 2:01 AM

    This is so so great

  • Cactus Woman April 20th, 2013 4:35 AM

    I have been waiting for something like this for SO LONG. You’ve no idea. Can’t wait to submit to a future one!

    ~*~**THANK YOU!**~*~

  • diniada13 April 20th, 2013 6:30 AM

    Love these!!! But if I want to submit poetry should it match the monthly theme?

    • Anaheed April 20th, 2013 6:34 AM

      No, it doesn’t have to.

  • Alex S. April 20th, 2013 10:51 PM

    I can almost feel the words behind these poems, is that weird? It might be but these are beautiful, can’t wait to see this revisited in the future.

  • cornly_ April 21st, 2013 9:05 AM

    BEST THING EVER

  • cornly_ April 21st, 2013 9:12 AM

    P.s Childhood Playmates made me kind of tear up, it was just beautiful.

    • chestnutsumo85 April 21st, 2013 3:22 PM

      thank you so much! – Sophie

  • Ella W April 21st, 2013 1:26 PM

    I wish this was a monthly piece on Rookie!

    http://gorillalegs.blogspot.co.uk/

  • Maddy April 21st, 2013 10:26 PM

    IS STEVE HAPPY?! More poetry! :D

  • abby111039 April 22nd, 2013 8:06 PM

    I wish I had read these sooner. What a lovely collection of poems.

  • April 23rd, 2013 1:25 PM

    This was just beautiful.

  • HaverchuckForPresident April 27th, 2013 4:47 PM

    I really love these. The fact that they are from this community with people around my own age thinking and going through similar things as me makes them super-relatable. I especially like Keep Open, Consumable Yourh Rebellion and Divorce is a Dirty Word :) :) :)

  • pubertyblues April 28th, 2013 11:44 PM

    every single one of these made me cry

  • Rini July 29th, 2013 11:13 PM

    So fresh:)