I’m pretty satisfied with my social situation right now. That’s something I haven’t said for a long time. I’m not being bullied, I don’t have enemies, I have a best friend (and a few other ones). I prefer this to having many friends, because that’s overwhelming: you need to worry about so much and keep up with so many people’s problems and lives or else you’re a bad friend, and I can’t deal with that. In general, there’s little drama in my social life.
Nobody really pays attention to me, which is pretty much the only part of school that I really like. Everyone leaves each other alone here. And though this is my 10th school in almost as many years, this is the first time I’ve experienced anything like that. Everyone kind of minds their own business. I get the odd comment about my clothes, or someone videotapes me in the hall for whatever reason, but it’s way better than feeling like a mascot or a novelty.
I’ve become more and more introverted over the years, I think. I’m having kind of a hard time right now with depression and anxiety. If it were up to me, I’d be alone in my room all day, but this—not having to talk to everyone in sight and not knowing everyone I see—might be the next best thing. So yes, as boring an entry as this might be, I’m content with this one situation. And I hope it stays that way. ♦