Dear Diary

August 15, 2012

Nothing stays the same.

Katherine

I move into a dorm on Friday with two roommates I know nothing about. I mean, from their Facebook pages, I know that they have blonde hair and share a love of Lil Wayne. I know where they’re from and that one of them possibly has a color scheme for her section of the dorm. Essentially I have no idea what these people will be like. And that scares me.

I’ve spent the week preparing for Friday. I went shopping, played my flute for the first time all summer, and took an online course called AlcoholEdu. One question it asked went something like, “When you choose to drink, IF you choose to drink, why do you do it?” And the answers were something like: “(A) To ‘fit in.’ (B) To feel ‘more attractive.’ (C) To feel more ‘connected’ with others. (D) SEXXXXXX.” These aren’t the exact answers, but that is basically what it was saying.

Stupid online courses aside, I’m really nervous about this next week. I have many questions. Am I a desirable friend? Will other people look at me and know that I don’t know nearly as much about current events and politics as I should? Or that I never memorized the entire times table? Do college kids use backpacks, or is that soooo high school? Should I bring my CD player?

I’m going to hate leaving my room. Where else can you spend long stretches of time hanging out in your underwear and listening to music? I guess I could become a stripper and do just that, but I could never walk in those heels without sustaining a major injury.

So I’m nervous. And upset about leaving my brother. He’s terrible at snuggling and likes to put his feet on people, but he’s also a COOKIE ON WHEELS. He’s one of my favorite people ever. When he left for college two years ago, I dramatically wept in the window seat of my room and kept on thinking, Nothing’s ever going to be the same again. Moving on is good, but it’s scary. ♦

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15 Comments

  • GlitterKitty August 15th, 2012 7:13 PM

    If I could, I would totally throw confetti around and make a banner for you Naomi.

  • EmilyJn August 15th, 2012 7:46 PM

    Good luck for your exam results (AS results I’m guessing?) tomorrow Naomi! I’m getting mine as well….agh!

  • Eryn August 15th, 2012 8:32 PM

    Can a preteen Rookie please tell Dylan that she is their hero?

  • bugaleeto August 15th, 2012 8:53 PM

    Minnaaaaaaaaaaa!!!!! Im so sad that you wont be a diarist anymore! Thought your last diary was so awsome and good.

  • I.ila August 15th, 2012 9:18 PM

    Nooo! Minna, we’ll all miss you so much! I can’t wait to see more of your work on Rookie!

  • Abby August 15th, 2012 11:44 PM

    Katherine, I feel you. I leave on the 23rd, and I’m… scared and excited and apprehensive and nervous, among many other emotions. It’s pretty terrifying to go to live with strangers 10 hours away from your home, and I’m definitely feeling that terror. And thinking about trying to make friends??? Even more terrifying. But with any luck, we will get through it :).

  • ivoire August 16th, 2012 1:51 AM

    omg minna!!!!!

  • Lucille August 16th, 2012 3:29 AM

    Ruby, can’t wait you to come back home and start writing posts again!: )

    http://fashion-babel.blogspot.com

  • Hannah. August 16th, 2012 6:43 AM

    Dylan, it’s really nice to hear that you feel like that. Which sounds mean! But I mean I just feel like you described my life I just feel so defeated and them randomly lazy and I like how you just have a cool life because when I get like that I feel like I will just die before anything I wanted too ever happens or that I’ll just never leave Canberra and Ill become a public servant like the rest of the city. Anyway thanks gurrl. You always make me happy.

  • Emelie August 16th, 2012 6:55 AM

    Katherine, good luck with starting college! Your required alcohol education course sounds like the one I had to do before my freshman year. Our version had a cartoon frog named “Hoppy” who would chime in every four slides to remind us that “One cup is NOT one drink!” People were still imitating Hoppy’s cheerful exhortations when they were seniors.

    Which is not to say that there’s not useful information in those classes, and that drinking safely is really, really important, but the heavy-handed, middle school aesthetic of the AlcoholEdu system makes it perfect as an icebreaker when you’re trying to meet other fabulous new freshmen.

    Also, backpacks in college = good. Definitely bring a backpack. It saves so much time trudging back and forth to your dorm, and it’s great for smuggling bagels into the library.

    • Mim September 12th, 2012 9:01 PM

      Some college libraries entirely allow food!

  • Naomi August 16th, 2012 10:10 AM

    i got an A in history, a B in politics and C in english lit (the irony) !! i am pleased

  • Rhiannon August 16th, 2012 4:16 PM

    Congratulations Naomi!! :) I got my results today aswell and felt pleased too but I totally get what you mean…
    The end of summer is looming and I have no idea what to do with myself

  • DE August 16th, 2012 11:06 PM

    Naomi fist off you like Tame Impala!!! Second I went to boarding school art year which I absolutely hated. The school was full of close minded elitists who I had nothing in common with, I was homesick all year, isolated and wanting so badly to take part in some sort of discussion that actually made me think. By the middle of the year I had developed serious anxiety and depression. I had my first anxiety attack and thought I was going to die. I continued to have anxiety attacks for the rest of the year. Nobody understood or helped me. The first time I told my mom she thought it was all in my head. I felt completely alone. Finally my mom did some research on anxiety and believed me. I started to go to doctors and get help. It was finally decided that I return home. Now I have a week before my new school starts and am becoming more and more anxious and facing the same problems as you. I don’t really know why I’m sharing all this on but i just had this weird aha! moment where i realized I’m not the only one. thank you.

  • guiltfreedonut August 20th, 2012 10:05 PM

    MINNA! I will so miss your gorgeous collages but I’m glad you’ll still be illustrating.

    http://www.guiltfreedonut.com