Dear Diary

April 4, 2012

The universe is up to something.

Dylan

March was kind of a harsh month. Between getting attacked on the street, the situation with Crush Boy, the conflict with Crush Boy’s friend, and the faltering health of my dog (and best friend), I didn’t have the time of my life. But last week, things started to turn around. It was my first week back at school after a very busy spring break, and I kind of killed it. By last Friday, I was riding high on my own successes, having received an A on a paper and two surprisingly successful critiques that I had predicted would blow up in my face. One of the projects was for my mentorship class. It’s our only studio assignment all semester, so I felt pressure to produce the ~ultimate~ piece about who I am. It was called West Coast Social Suicide, and it combined my personal writing with hand-drawn typography in a large-format print exposing my feelings of social anxiety. I must have started it 10 different times, but I got a ton of positive feedback that I didn’t expect, which was a confidence boost to help me prepare for April, also known as “Holy shit, finals are starting!?!” month.

I was sleep deprived but totally beside myself with excitement when my friend from home came to visit. Jo arrived just when I was starting to miss Seattle. We had a fun few days, cruising on bikes to find vintage stores, dancing at our friend’s hair-metal night, and talking shit over brunch. To add to the good times, our friends’ band from Seattle rolled through town, so there was an extra burst of familiar faces. That’s just the PINNACLE of happiness for me—the convergence of my Seattle and Bay Area social lives makes me feel like life is whole and beautiful.

But speaking of convergence, at the show, I spotted pretty much the only two people in my life that are complicated to run into: my ex-best friend and the dude I got in a fight with last week. Jo and I said hi to the girl I used to be friends with. I tried to have a conversation with her, but she interrupted and talked over me a lot, which reminded me that, yeah, she does that. I don’t like it! Then, after a couple of bands and a significant period of awkward avoidance, Crush Boy’s friend came up to me and apologized. Of course that made me feel like a total winner, but that’s not so wrong, is it? The guy still sketches me out, but at least he admitted his mistake.

All of this happened over the birthday weekend of a certain former Crush Boy, which I purposely neglected. Again, small victories, but they give me a sense of satisfaction.

The week was full of positive little turns, which I appreciate now more than ever. I explored sadness in March, but maybe this signals a transformation in April (copyright Rookie, 2012). I’m trying really hard to keep up that momentum and glide into spring like a sugar glider, flyin’ through the sunshine.

A sugar glider

WOOO, here I come. WHOA, there I go. ♦

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26 Comments

  • FashionHauties April 4th, 2012 7:11 PM

    Katherine, that was actually hilarious. I wish something odd like that would happen to me for prom. Instead I’m going to church prom with friends. :/ haha
    http://fashionhauties.blogspot.com/

  • MissKnowItAll April 4th, 2012 7:17 PM

    I just want to take this minute to say that I have so much to thank Rookie for. Reading and learning from you guys has been the best thing in the world for me.

    • Juniper April 4th, 2012 7:54 PM

      Amen.

    • Abby April 5th, 2012 3:23 PM

      I would post this on every single article if I could (if they wouldn’t block me for trolling ha). I’m so glad that I found Rookie at this time in my life, and I’m going to keep reading it in college next year and after that. Rookie is amazing. Thank you, I love you guys.

  • Abby April 4th, 2012 7:17 PM

    1) That sugar glider is probably the cutest thing I’ve seen in a week. Well, except for all the kitten videos I watched earlier because of the room cleaning article’s link.

    2) I think the slowed-down voices at the end of the Michael Jackson ghost video are scarier than ghosts.

    • Ruby B. April 4th, 2012 10:11 PM

      EVERYTHING ABOUT IT IS TERRIFYING

  • Yellie April 4th, 2012 7:33 PM

    Naomi, what you’re feeling describing is pretty much how i feel right now. For so long everything was so dark and I’ve finally got some hold over my emotions but it feels so fragile. It’s so confusing and scary because feelings just happen, and at any moment i think i could just be sucked back under.

  • Jes April 4th, 2012 7:46 PM

    SCORE ONE FOR KATHERINE!!!

  • Juniper April 4th, 2012 7:53 PM

    Can I just say I love all you guys.

  • OlyGirl_LAWorld April 4th, 2012 7:55 PM

    Katherine! I’m so happy that prom turned out the way it did for you! Also, super jealous that you discovered the key to high school social situations WHILE STILL IN HIGH SCHOOL. Damn. But! Even though I am an adult, I am lucky enough to get a second-chance prom every year in college (HOLLA USC QUASA’s Second Chance Prom!!) I’ll be keeping your awesome experience in mind as I trash it up this weekend ;)

    ps this year’s theme is Zombie Prom. I know.

    • MissKnowItAll April 4th, 2012 8:07 PM

      When I read the theme for your prom i totally thought “OMG WIZARDS OF WAVERLY PLACE!!!”

  • meghanj April 4th, 2012 8:24 PM

    YAY PROM!!!!! prom here isn’t for a few months and am I completely 100% silly and a loser if I make a mix CD called “PROM??????????” and give it to a cute boy and run away?

    I don’t even want a prom date really what are you doing to me, high school…….

  • mariaantoniavs April 4th, 2012 8:33 PM

    haha, Ruby you’re dad’s awesome!! I love reading your stories, they always make me laugh!!!

  • Maddy April 4th, 2012 8:52 PM

    Donkey orifice is an interesting insult. I was wondering what the “idea” was behind the journals. Is it so we can see other people’s teenage existences and relate? Are there ever going to be new diary-writers? (Not that you guys aren’t great!) I would very much like to read a diary from Minna, as this collage is though-provoking for me. And also to explain the salted floor.

  • KinuKinu April 4th, 2012 9:19 PM

    I loved all of them ♥♥♥ These are so cool.ROOKIE RULES ♥♥

  • dianeisnotmyname April 4th, 2012 10:11 PM

    Naomi- as someone also recovering from anxiety, I’ve found that writing down three good things that happen every day can help when I’m having either a really good or really bad week. It seems like you are good at focusing on the “little things” like nature, so just remind yourself of those when you’re sad. (Of course, it’s not that simple as I’ve found but little things right)! Also, for me, it was actually a blessing in disguise when I was surprised by my period. My anxiety typically gets so much worse when I am PMSing, and when it doesn’t it means I’m making progress! Your PMS doesn’t seem too bad if you could sit out and chill and relax whilst not realizing the hormonal chaos taking place in your body. (of course we’re two different people so our situations could be different, but optimism right?)

    Dylan- I also love that feeling of being on top of the world after people screw you over. There’s a great sense of accomplishment through that that I can identify with. This weekend is my “crushboy’s” (as in former thing that’s no longer a thing basically like the song Somebody That I Used to Know by Gotye) birthday as well and I don’t know what to do.

  • missblack April 4th, 2012 11:03 PM

    Awwwww Katherine I am SO HAPPY FOR YOUUUUUUU!!!!! (Sam sounds awesome!!!!)
    You have officially given me hope for my life. :D

    Little&Trivial

  • meanjellybeans April 4th, 2012 11:26 PM

    Katherine, the chain of events leading up to you and Sam going to prom together sounds like the kind of thing I dream up when things aren’t going my way. The fact that this happened, and went well, for that matter, is awesome and makes me very happy for you.

    Also, a guy who volunteers a perspiration forecast sounds about your speed. That sounded insulting. It wasn’t meant to be, I wasn’t trying to say that you are all perspiration-y or that you can only get guys with significant amounts of perspiration. I just meant he sounds a little offbeat. Whatever you know what I meant bye.

  • Bella April 5th, 2012 2:04 AM

    I haven’t even read the full articles, but the fact that the new kid sounded like Sam Weir when he says “Oh. Hi Cindy” makes me so so so so so so so happy.

  • Maddy April 5th, 2012 2:35 PM

    Naomi- I feel your pain! Not literally, now, but recently yes. I got stabbed in the leg on Sunday with a fencing weapon which is dull but still managed to scrape and horribly bruise me through my pants. And I had my period at the same time. Bruise buddies! Hopefully it’s feeling better :)

  • Hannah. April 5th, 2012 5:21 PM

    Naomi – don’t get creeped out. But you have incredibly cute feet. :)

    • Naomi April 5th, 2012 6:19 PM

      not creepy!!! i like my cute feet :)
      (apart from my poorly toe atm)

  • isabellehungryghost April 6th, 2012 8:11 AM

    hahahaa! ruby! this is gorgeous!

  • Mom April 6th, 2012 6:29 PM

    i’m happy when you are happy. burst out laughing at the little critter flyin.

    • Dylan April 7th, 2012 12:41 PM

      Imagine it flying into your face